The Impossible Dream Lyrics

To dream ... the impossible dream ...
To fight ... the unbeatable foe ...
To bear ... with unbearable sorrow ...
To run ... where the brave dare not go ...
To right ... the unrightable wrong ...
To love ... pure and chaste from afar ...
To try ... when your arms are too weary ...
To reach ... the unreachable star ...

This is my quest, to follow that star ...
No matter how hopeless, no matter how far ...
To fight for the right, without question or pause ...
To be willing to march into Hell, for a Heavenly cause ...

And I know if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest,
That my heart will lie will lie peaceful and calm,
when I'm laid to my rest ...
And the world will be better for this:
That one man, scorned and covered with scars,
Still strove, with his last ounce of courage,
To reach ... the unreachable star ...

Lyrics by Joe Darion

Like the lyric so much. It speaks deep to my heart.

Sunday is my favorite day. Do you know, having a restful day at home is a luxury especially for those who have been floating outside for a long time. I miss my home.

Glancing through the albums in my precious drawer, bring back all those memories that making part of the puzzles in my life. Oh, thank God that i have my puzzles of history. *_*

On my way back to IPOH last night, i came to thought about my future and really feel that i am human again. Busy days have took away all my time to think and really feel that i am living. I can never let this to continue in the rest of my life. Hey, what i am doing? Why am i so busy until can't event have the time to feel that i'm living. Workaholic will not be my cup of tea man!!! I want to enjoy living, enjoy what is real life that suppose to be.

God, please keep me awake. All these while i have been seeing people living lives without soul. Hectic life without purpose. Wealthy without happiness. Freedom without self control. Competing for things that does not last. Lying self and people that it is what so called life. It is all, grabbing for wind. I do not believe how the world shows me things it is. However, i believe that the wisdom from God can see through all those barrier and what is wind.

I am living for only one purpose that is to serve you my lord, my awesome God. Show me thy way to live life to the fullest. Take away my selfishness and my desire of greed.

Who shall i dare to compare as i am nobody?
How dare i complaint as i come with empty hand and now are loaded?
How dare i judge others as God you are the justice who rule the world?
How dare i not saying grace as i keep on receiving all those blessing from YOU?
YOu are my light and the lamp. Thanks God for You had chosen me .

No other Love

Infatuation is a word to describe when i first fall in love. Why can't i feel the same infatuation with God? Or am i having dementia, forget why i have with God before.... the journey is blur when i look back. I can't see out of the mist. God, forgive me if i have been so far away from you. I would want to invite God , today...come join me my walk....my door is open for you.

I want to miss you like i miss the sunshine everyday. I want to think about you like the food i am thinking every second. i want to drink your blood of sacrifice, eat the flesh of you offering. i want to get close with you as if i am wearing my bra. i want to be loved, be touched, be hugged every second of my life. i want to be blessed.

Tightening my belt

Days are not the same as before... it's going to meet the study weeks again. Well, i am craving for it because i really appreciate for even a day of reading relaxing in the room. ^_^

I don't care how much harder to go, i want to be a good nurse! I want to go travel around! i want to feel........ i want to see! :) yeah babe, indeed i am so greedy...but without fulfilling this, i will not be satisfied.

Well, holiday i was at home spending every single moment with my family and computer. However , i spent a lot also. This semester i've been investing in buying, printer, digital camera, Devotion's bible, shoes rack, books rack, shoes.....and many... at the end.. I open my mouth and beg my mum for help...

Can you imagine how sad it is? I wonder.. if one day i never ask my mum for money, instead i give her money and bring her to where she wants... how great would it be....... mama, i wanna be a big girl...i bigger one not the one who still need burn your pocket. i think, i would need financial management...

3 year first semester..(a honey moon and thrill chapter)

Guess what, this year i will be going into a psychiatric ward. >_<> i cannot bear with manic people's touching or hugging. i am so scare!!!!!! why is it my depth of distance perception so sensitive? who can help me??? mummy....i wanna be a nurse but definitely not a psychiatric ward nurse.Days are definitely brand new everyday.
The sky changes,
the weather changes,
i don't change ,
how to walk?
Some days i will be there thinking of why all the time. Questions seem a lot for me but the answer doesn't really touch my heart nor change me. Being stubborn is a mechanism to protect myself. Maybe i shouldn't have to act like this but i'm feeling insecure and coward inside. A i know more about myself, i rather to avoid what is real and return to my comfort zone. I wonder why, recently my comfort zone seems changed following the sky. I am the one left behind and hanging around heading to no way. God, please be close with me, hold my hand tight so that i can feel your presence.

Never the same..

Change seems so shocking to me as the indifference of it is unpredictable. The world keeps changing and human too. Can you imagine as that everything is so good and you are so contented suddenly change up side down like you do not belong to? I will definitely never like this insecure feeling.
Recently, i have learned something in the current game that i played, entitled " spores". My character is a carnivore. I use to survive from a bacteria until conquer the planet. It is a game which showing the reality of the world. I use to be a crafty as serpent and never innocent as Doves. Some monster might looks adorable with their appearance but, their turn up eating me when i was trying to make friends with them. Shockingly, it ended up changing me to become severe killer. I've no friends at all. A lonely one but the one who own the earth.
After the game over, i realized something which was my reaction towards it show my real personality. Even though it is just a game, I react to the situation naturally without a second thought. If things happen the same in real world, i would have been doing the same thing. Can you see that i was in the process of being influenced and going to be molded into something? If in this world everyone act the same, how would it be ? "i remember one thing, it was when i saw the farmer i was trying to kill keep begging me innocently had ended up his life by my cruelty slaughter; i feel so weird ...how could i do that.
When we do not change, people beside us will dash in and trying to change us. Does this annoy you? For me, definitely a yes. They are trying to change us because they know us, they know too much of us. For this, it just make me feel like short changed in friendship. Talking out openly will never be my view about the gist of friendship. Sometimes it would be better talking to the death or your pet rather than a flesh human when things come to your privacy.
Even though i no longer like to talk about myself, i come across this and am trying to learn how to see fools as a chance of learning. To see people characteristic and learning to forgive and embrace people faults. Father has so much for me to learn...... the world is such convoluted and complicated yet i have the biggest Father and the Almighty taking care of me. This is a blessing!

How Long Do Human Live to?

Today i just saw this news from yahoo which is about the British World War OneHenry Allingham is the world's oldest man at 113 following the death of the previous holder of the title, Japan's Tomoji Tanabe, Guinness World Records said on Friday. This has enlightened and reminded me about what the BIBle said.

Genesis 6:3
Then the lord said," My Spirit will not put up with humans for such a long time, for they are only mortal flesh. In future, they will live no more than 120 years."

Although this sounds sad or like a curse, yet i see it in a different way. It proves that God knows human more than we know ourselves. He lets us know how long do we live our lives even to the fullest, we are still having such a meager life. It is short. I am starting to count my blessing and how much do i really did to make it worthy. No matter what, thank God for i am healthy and still living.
I believe not a single wise man would be able to control his life nor age. We are just too fragile and weak. Man who lives without God lives his life like a blind man, walking in path among the crowd, heading no way and misleading by all those voices around. He knows something about God, but he is not ready for his kingdom and salvation. Well, so many voices around, how can he make his decision as he is blind. Even people who knows or believe in God would have eyes yet but cannot see and with ears but cannot listen...pathetic.

God, spare my life and let me be the humble servant of you. Give me the super "eyemore" so that i have eyes could see. Give me the super hearing device so that i have ears could listen. Give me wisdom so that words form my mouth bring benefits to others. Give me a humble heart, so that i lean not on my own understanding but you. In christ i pray, Amen.