Thursday, June 21, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Blessed are the moment i chose to listen to you, Oh God. Blessed are the time we fasted and pray for Your blessing and agreement towards this relationship, Oh God. Blessed are both of us were chosen by You, to serve the youth and your people. God, i don't know how far you want me to serve and how should i serve you in your ministry.... but God....i hope it is Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
Father Lord, i am only a weak and fragile lady. I might not be capable in your ministry but i would pleased to be chosen by you, Oh Lord.
I am blessed to be a nurse to love and care your people, Oh Lord. I am blessed to work with a christian physician. I am blessed to have a lovely family. I am blessed to have a christian boy friend. Father Lord, for this so much you have blessed me.....what can i do for you? Show me thy way.
Thank you Father Lord for being so thoughtful to me and being so understanding. ^_^ Thank you Father Lord, for you have shown me and proved to me thy way which is always right and perfect.
I shall not doubt thy plan on my path........ i love you , God. Please make my heart pure for You and give me wisdom and faith to continue walking with you.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
I believes everyone has their talent and strong ability in something or somewhere. It matters that wether we can find out early or lately. It is important that we know what that draws our attention and where does our passions lay. If we do things that we likes, it would be definitely shines among others. TOday, i am want to ask, you doing what you are passion in?
As for me, to always start a new thing is easy but to maintain a thing is quite miserably. In this, i see my weakness and shall always find someone or something to maintain my enthusiasm and reminds me my passion. It is none another way than you find someone who is better than you or excel in something that you would really likes to be. i will not lose my passion as i see the extra miles that you can run, and why not me? As i leap higher each time in a different level of my life, i see more heroes around the world that i never think i can be. You have make a difference and widened my perspective.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Time passed by like a click on facebook. Actually it really passes like this yet I often refuse to do something about it. Weighing between myself and God, I am far heavier than The Only God. Well, I am still learning to make a balance between for the law of equilibrium would always work. (to spend more time in His works)
As I flashed back to my memory, I couldn’t remember much what have I did for Him this but left a little bit memories for the path I have gone throw with him during my first year and second year of studies time. Well, it isn’t that worst for me, in my third year and final year, it was a journey to learn and journey to face challenges. Being with God not only during CF time when we serve him or in church Sunday service. Walking with God is such a toil and long journey which will lea
d you to be a stronger and better person.
No hardship, no gain. I choose to walk with him not because I am silly just to make myself in trouble and ended up in sorrows and tears; It is important for I know his blessing come from he fruits of toils, bad hair day, sorrows, and bitterness. In the bible, all the people of God learned and become better only after the pathway of bitterness and toils. Yet, by following his words of teaching, we know how to walk through all. Learning isn’t only by heart but through practice. Knowledge is wide and deep, those who scored isn’t the one who get the most but those who practiced earned the knowledge and wisdom.
Final year in nursing is quite a good practise year where I get to exposed in real tournament of the evil world. I saw the reality of medical issue and hospital management, the hidden secret and the true colours of some of my colleagues. How could we live in the word of God when you are facing so much dilemmas and negatives feedbacks from friends and others? I was in deep anger before, hidingmyself from sharing; for people who know you better intended to manipulate and take advantage from you. People who get jealous just can’t stop to bring you down with negative feedbacks and tons of workloads. For I live to learn and live to improve and share, I never give up. God is always the best listener and always the truthful friends, for He is the only one would die for us.
Guess how? Hmmm.. I am acting like basketball. For people who pressurize me and bring me down, I change better and pump harder than they could expect. For people who brings me negative feedbacks, I give response through talked it out. Never have I kept things that are bad from people in the heart for it would eat up my spiritual soul. All the bitterness, competition, and disaster or troubles I faced are blessing. Why? It is practical, man!!!! When I went through it, I get the skills. It sounds like a computer games, haha …But it is really true. Sometimes, it also explained to me why some people facing the same troubles and same bitterness again and again. It is just because we haven’t learn the skills that God blessed for us. No hiding nor running away, we always fight it and bring back the trophy to God.
Living is not only about oneself, because we are in the crowd among people. Bible always reminds me not only mine our own business but mine others too. Why? Again, law of karma for our selfishness, others misfortune would link to us. To choose seeing people die standing and bring the trouble to us later ,why not to choose helping and bringing up everyone, for people would remember us and be influenced for our good deeds. Examples: Friends in same courses, m same school, having competition among to be better student and bring each other down or hiding good studies material from others. Karma: Others school laugh at our school. No much improvement in the courses. People hiring you would ask about where you come from and not how good we actually score. A trophy of your own makes nothing but a trophy of a group can even change the world..Always works in groups. The one who practise more things, the one who learned more things. The one who listen or talk but do nothing, the one gain a day dreaming.
Finally, this is the last thing I have learned and would like to share. Brothers and sisters who fall in the path walking with God is a normal thing we see. We shall not give them tongue lashing for it is the normal procedure we need to go through. In the Bible, those apostles, student of Jesus, those that see God with eyes and touch him with flesh, dine with God and see His miracles done and being washed feet by Jesus; they fall by denied Him and run away when Jesus went through crucifix. Once they fall, they know God more, they all stand up to share His Gospel to the world around and serve Him till the end of their live. We, shall bring warms and loves with encouragement to our fallen brothers and sisters. It is never late 2Peter 3:9. For God never abandon us even we abandon him. Seeks His word and Works for He will reveals us the Wisdom of life.
Hope my testimony would help you through the life in campus, spiritual and the reality of the world. God bless.
“But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him. 1Corinthians 2:9 “
Sunday, October 31, 2010
To fight ... the unbeatable foe ...
To bear ... with unbearable sorrow ...
To run ... where the brave dare not go ...
To right ... the unrightable wrong ...
To love ... pure and chaste from afar ...
To try ... when your arms are too weary ...
To reach ... the unreachable star ...
This is my quest, to follow that star ...
No matter how hopeless, no matter how far ...
To fight for the right, without question or pause ...
To be willing to march into Hell, for a Heavenly cause ...
And I know if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest,
That my heart will lie will lie peaceful and calm,
when I'm laid to my rest ...
And the world will be better for this:
That one man, scorned and covered with scars,
Still strove, with his last ounce of courage,
To reach ... the unreachable star ...
Lyrics by Joe Darion
Like the lyric so much. It speaks deep to my heart.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Glancing through the albums in my precious drawer, bring back all those memories that making part of the puzzles in my life. Oh, thank God that i have my puzzles of history. *_*
On my way back to IPOH last night, i came to thought about my future and really feel that i am human again. Busy days have took away all my time to think and really feel that i am living. I can never let this to continue in the rest of my life. Hey, what i am doing? Why am i so busy until can't event have the time to feel that i'm living. Workaholic will not be my cup of tea man!!! I want to enjoy living, enjoy what is real life that suppose to be.
God, please keep me awake. All these while i have been seeing people living lives without soul. Hectic life without purpose. Wealthy without happiness. Freedom without self control. Competing for things that does not last. Lying self and people that it is what so called life. It is all, grabbing for wind. I do not believe how the world shows me things it is. However, i believe that the wisdom from God can see through all those barrier and what is wind.
I am living for only one purpose that is to serve you my lord, my awesome God. Show me thy way to live life to the fullest. Take away my selfishness and my desire of greed.
Who shall i dare to compare as i am nobody?
How dare i complaint as i come with empty hand and now are loaded?
How dare i judge others as God you are the justice who rule the world?
How dare i not saying grace as i keep on receiving all those blessing from YOU?
YOu are my light and the lamp. Thanks God for You had chosen me .
Monday, December 14, 2009
Infatuation is a word to describe when i first fall in love. Why can't i feel the same infatuation with God? Or am i having dementia, forget why i have with God before.... the journey is blur when i look back. I can't see out of the mist. God, forgive me if i have been so far away from you. I would want to invite God , today...come join me my walk....my door is open for you.
I want to miss you like i miss the sunshine everyday. I want to think about you like the food i am thinking every second. i want to drink your blood of sacrifice, eat the flesh of you offering. i want to get close with you as if i am wearing my bra. i want to be loved, be touched, be hugged every second of my life. i want to be blessed.