Friday, July 24, 2009

3 year first semester..(a honey moon and thrill chapter)

Guess what, this year i will be going into a psychiatric ward. >_<> i cannot bear with manic people's touching or hugging. i am so scare!!!!!! why is it my depth of distance perception so sensitive? who can help me??? mummy....i wanna be a nurse but definitely not a psychiatric ward nurse.Days are definitely brand new everyday.
The sky changes,
the weather changes,
i don't change ,
how to walk?

Some days i will be there thinking of why all the time. Questions seem a lot for me but the answer doesn't really touch my heart nor change me. Being stubborn is a mechanism to protect myself. Maybe i shouldn't have to act like this but i'm feeling insecure and coward inside. A i know more about myself, i rather to avoid what is real and return to my comfort zone. I wonder why, recently my comfort zone seems changed following the sky. I am the one left behind and hanging around heading to no way. God, please be close with me, hold my hand tight so that i can feel your presence.