It has been to tired for a day like this. Not because I've been sleeping for long. Not because i been eating to much. I'm kinda down with making decision. :( You know what? i feel like running .
" No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful.
Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace
for those who have been trained by it. Hebrews 12:11"
Oh, i just cannot imagine how! i can't picture it. i don't repent because i don't understand. I find myself very stubborn.. yes i am.
Oh Lord, how could you bear such a person like me? My love to you is limited, yet you still love me like your child and always patience to teach and make me discipline. I am not ready for your always yet your are always ready for me. How much could to praise you? The way you see me is not like how the world see me. When i am fall, you are always my shelter. For you know i am so fragile now, do not let me lead by temptation. i love you God, do not let me done something that make you disappointed nor anger.
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ReplyDeleteThe way God sees repentance is not just through mere actions. For things which you feel impossible to do, commit it in prayer and trust Him to either do it for you, or to reveal you the way to do it.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding" - Proverbs 3:5
If you said you find yourself hard to repent, because you do not understand, this is a verse for you. =) Do not be surprised if someday, you realized that all has been done without you even knowing it. Such things happens.
And do not pull yourself down so much. Everyone's going through what you are going through now from time to time - simply because all of us are just mere humans, and all of us have fall short before God. Always remember that even right from the beginning, there has been nothing that we have that could please Him... yet He still sent His Son to die for us even though we have nothing in our hands.
Never forget... We became who we are today because of what God has done for us, and from miry clay, we have become precious jars simply because of His Grace - no more and no less. And do you know what's the best part? Before we are even born... Before we even know how to think and even before we committed our very first sin or good work, Jesus Christ has died for us on the cross almost 2000 YEARS before we even took our first breath on Earth~! This is how amazing God's Love and Grace is to us who is living in the 21st century. =) Conclusion? Never feel burdened because you feel that you fall short before God, because that is one of the reasons why Jesus died for you, me and everyone else on the cross - and when Jesus said "It is finished" (John 19:30)... It IS finished so that you will not have to worry about this anymore. Instead, here's a new focus you should be looking forward to: Build your relationship with God, and help build God's Kingdom for the days to come so that when the time comes, all will be ready for eternity~! =)
"Forgetting what is ahead and straining towards what is ahead. I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwards in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 3:13-14
As little as your contributions may be, God will take it all, and He will make it abundant. That's Grace.
And again... I know you love God, but here's another thing for you:
"It is not the healthy who needs a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: 'I desire mercy, not sacrifice.' For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners." - Matthew 9:12-13
Hope you find my message to you beneficial, though I admit that it is simply lengthy. Remember, what passed has passed. Jesus has freed you from all your past bondage. It's time to soar and rise with His Grace and look forward for the future~
I am aware that we do not know each other much since we did not spend much time in CampCam... but still, you are still a friend, and I pray that my help (or lecture =P) will find its use to you... Hope to see you around~
The night wind passes by...
"Come to me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest... For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." - Matthew 11:28,30