Never the same..

Change seems so shocking to me as the indifference of it is unpredictable. The world keeps changing and human too. Can you imagine as that everything is so good and you are so contented suddenly change up side down like you do not belong to? I will definitely never like this insecure feeling.
Recently, i have learned something in the current game that i played, entitled " spores". My character is a carnivore. I use to survive from a bacteria until conquer the planet. It is a game which showing the reality of the world. I use to be a crafty as serpent and never innocent as Doves. Some monster might looks adorable with their appearance but, their turn up eating me when i was trying to make friends with them. Shockingly, it ended up changing me to become severe killer. I've no friends at all. A lonely one but the one who own the earth.
After the game over, i realized something which was my reaction towards it show my real personality. Even though it is just a game, I react to the situation naturally without a second thought. If things happen the same in real world, i would have been doing the same thing. Can you see that i was in the process of being influenced and going to be molded into something? If in this world everyone act the same, how would it be ? "i remember one thing, it was when i saw the farmer i was trying to kill keep begging me innocently had ended up his life by my cruelty slaughter; i feel so weird ...how could i do that.
When we do not change, people beside us will dash in and trying to change us. Does this annoy you? For me, definitely a yes. They are trying to change us because they know us, they know too much of us. For this, it just make me feel like short changed in friendship. Talking out openly will never be my view about the gist of friendship. Sometimes it would be better talking to the death or your pet rather than a flesh human when things come to your privacy.
Even though i no longer like to talk about myself, i come across this and am trying to learn how to see fools as a chance of learning. To see people characteristic and learning to forgive and embrace people faults. Father has so much for me to learn...... the world is such convoluted and complicated yet i have the biggest Father and the Almighty taking care of me. This is a blessing!

How Long Do Human Live to?

Today i just saw this news from yahoo which is about the British World War OneHenry Allingham is the world's oldest man at 113 following the death of the previous holder of the title, Japan's Tomoji Tanabe, Guinness World Records said on Friday. This has enlightened and reminded me about what the BIBle said.

Genesis 6:3
Then the lord said," My Spirit will not put up with humans for such a long time, for they are only mortal flesh. In future, they will live no more than 120 years."

Although this sounds sad or like a curse, yet i see it in a different way. It proves that God knows human more than we know ourselves. He lets us know how long do we live our lives even to the fullest, we are still having such a meager life. It is short. I am starting to count my blessing and how much do i really did to make it worthy. No matter what, thank God for i am healthy and still living.
I believe not a single wise man would be able to control his life nor age. We are just too fragile and weak. Man who lives without God lives his life like a blind man, walking in path among the crowd, heading no way and misleading by all those voices around. He knows something about God, but he is not ready for his kingdom and salvation. Well, so many voices around, how can he make his decision as he is blind. Even people who knows or believe in God would have eyes yet but cannot see and with ears but cannot listen...pathetic.

God, spare my life and let me be the humble servant of you. Give me the super "eyemore" so that i have eyes could see. Give me the super hearing device so that i have ears could listen. Give me wisdom so that words form my mouth bring benefits to others. Give me a humble heart, so that i lean not on my own understanding but you. In christ i pray, Amen.